I went to church today just empty...I just don't have any other word to describe it. I felt like I had given to my baby girl, given to friends, given to those who are hurting, and pretty much just given out... I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels that way at times. I think I just lost focus and was overwhelmed by the amount of pain I've been seeing. I love people and hate seeing them in pain especially if that pain could have been avoided by others (especially religious leaders) doing right.
I walked in the doors just praying that God would do something in my life because I knew that my "emptiness" was really starting to get to me and therefore it was affecting my family. God answered. I don't really know how to begin, but worship was amazing this morning, and God really used the worship time to speak to me. One of the songs we sang was a favorite of mine, but once again God used it to remind me where my focus needed to be and where I needed to run!
I love how music can change us, transform us, and help to renew our minds. I needed the reminder of who my God is (Good, love, light, hope, etc...) and I needed the reminder of where to run (right into His arms). I know that this doesn't change my circumstances, but it does change my focus, and help to renew my hope in the God that loves me and cares for me. I hope it encourages you too!