Sometimes it is easy when you hear a news story to pick apart a person in that story whether it be a person who committed a crime or someone who made a choice you don't agree with. The internet has become a place where people are not afraid to very publicly share their opinions. This can be both good and bad! I know my story has been very public (more so than I would have liked), and that has caused people to be very opinionated about me (and the other players in my story). Far too often I see people ascribing feelings and motives to me that aren't mine in any way. While I know I should let these things roll off my back, it is hard! So I thought I'd write a few things that I would like people to know about me.
If you could see my heart:
~ You would see no hatred or bitterness for any of those who have wronged me, only prayers for them to see the error of their ways so they don't hurt others in the same way.
~ You would see someone who would rather not have my story public, but someone who is amazed at what God has done because it has been so public.
~ You would see someone who grieved going through the trial process and only did it because it was the right thing to do so other potential victims could be protected.
~ You would see I share my story not for pity or notoriety, but to bring awareness so others can be protected from the trauma I went through.
~ You would see I am passionate about protecting children!
~ You would see my desire to help those who have been through trauma to see that there is always hope!
~ You would see my love for God and my sadness for how people (often in church leadership) have hurt others in the "name of God".
~ You would see someone who has experienced NO financial gain, rather suffered extensive loss through this painful process, but would chose to do it again in spite of the hardship.
~ You would see that for me if even one child has been protected, or one survivor given hope because of my story than it has been worth it for me!