Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Is a Broken Heart Worth the Cost?

My heart hurts. We received news recently that my husband and I have been subpoenaed to go back to New Hampshire for another trial. This time they are prosecuting my mother's husband for sexual abuse. He is already a convicted felon and a convicted sex offender. Unfortunately, he decided not to take the plea bargain.

I really have no desire to go through the whole trial process again. I would much rather be home with my children. BUT I know that this is right. So many studies have shown that most sex offenders do not change and will re-offend. If my testimony can help prevent even one child from being hurt, then to me it is worth the pain that is inevitably coming.

So why does my heart hurt so much? It hurts more for my mother than anything else. She is still with this offender. I know that she hasn't spoken to me in years, and has hurt me often, but I still love her. I hate to think that she would believe that in some way I'm trying to hurt her.

What I'm trying to remind myself is that ultimately my cooperation with the police and the prosecutor isn't what caused the pain for her. Her husband has continually made choices to be abusive and manipulative and his actions are really the source of the pain.

I would appreciate everyone's prayers as we walk yet another tough road.

15 comments:

  1. Am praying for you during this next difficult journey.
    Sheri

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  2. Yes. Praying. Loving you from afar.

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  3. Yes, Tina.
    Prayers and love from afar.

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  4. Tina, you are a strong and amazing woman. Yes, yes you are. You have grace and practice love, which is what keeps you living within beauty. You choose to do the right thing, although more than heartbreaking, to save another. This is the sacrifice, and it is honorable and good. You are always in our thoughts and hearts. You inspire me to be my best.

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  5. Praying Tina....I praise God for you and pray for you often .

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  6. So sorry for all the pain you have been through. Will be praying for all of you.

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  7. Prayers sweet friend! You have been through so much!!

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  8. May God bless you and strengthen you for doing this hard thing, made even more challenging in that you could be misunderstand and maligned by someone you love for doing it. Such a gracious heart was shining through the words you wrote above.

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  9. Tina, You are looking at this the right way. I am so sorry for all the pain you carry. Thank you for doing what is right, with all the myriad of emotions and pain. May God bless you

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  10. Tina, we will be praying for you! If you need anything PLEASE let us know! We support you in much love and many prayers.

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  11. Our hearts and prayers are with you, Tina. We are standing in a very similar position in our case, and I believe the pain is well worth the cost....saving even one child. We support you and trust God will show His justice in this trial. Thank you for all you do.

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  12. You are doing what God would have you do. Protecting his next victim is what in essence you are doing - and that has nothing to do with your mother. I pray that the strong lenses of enabling and denial are shed, and she can finally start to walk the path that God would have her walk. God will be with you during this time, and may the Holy Spirit help you find the strength in words and deed. I'm praying for you and your family...

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