Perspectives...

Yesterday in church we sang a worship song that really spoke to me. Sometimes it is really hard to see God and to worship Him in the midst of pain and trials. The beginning of this song says "Grow our faith Lord, when our eyes can't see, that you don't change Lord, You will ever be." It then goes into worship.

I feel as though God was really telling me that even when I can't seem to see what He is doing I need to praise Him. It is through these times that we can't seem to see Him that He grows our faith. He is so worthy of our worship and our praise. And somehow when I take the time to worship and praise Him it changes my entire focus and view on life. Praising helps me to remember that He is worthy, and I can trust Him that He has my life in His hands!

I can't get the video to post for some reason, so here is the link... You Are Holy

Waiting...

Apparently I'm in really good company in the waiting department... I went to a service last night that was really encouraging. I believe that God is still in the business of working miracles today, and I've often wondered why He has not chosen to do a miracle in my baby girl's body yet...

The preacher last night talked about how sometimes God has us wait for a miracle so that He can get all the glory... He talked about Abraham and how God made him wait for Isaac (the promised child) until both he and Sarah were very old and it seemed impossible for them to ever be able to have a baby. He also mentioned Lazarus... Jesus could have healed him at any point when he was sick, but he chose to wait until the situation seemed impossible because Lazarus had been dead long enough that his body had begun to smell. When these situations seemed completely impossible God stepped in. God worked a miracle. God did the impossible.

So, as we continue to wait and pray for God to heal our baby girl I'm choosing to focus on the fact that I serve a God that does the impossible. A God that deserves all the glory. A God that will intervene and do a miracle at just the right time.

Update

So, we got our test results back from our youngest daughter's latest medical tests. The results were not good. The doctors can't seem to agree on what to do next. They tried adding medication, but that made her sick, so now we wait again. I'm not incredibly fond of the choices that have been presented so far... We are praying for and would appreciate your prayers for wisdom and direction. It's tough to see her suffering and not have the answers that we need to help her. I'm still choosing to trust that God loves my baby girl and has what is best for her.

Sovereign

Last week was so tough for us! Our youngest daughter had to endure yet another yucky test. This one didn't go very smoothly...to make a very long story short she went into hysteria and had to be sedated. Honestly, I don't blame her! I think I would have a hard time having a tube put down my nose all the way to my belly and then having it taped to my face only to find out it wasn't placed properly so they had to remove the tape pull the tube out a little and then re-tape. Poor girl! After we were able to get her calmed down I was able to talk her through the rest and she really did well with the 24 hour time period we had to leave it in. For that I am truly grateful!

Now, we wait... The waiting is the worst part. The results determine if they want her to have yet ANOTHER major surgery. I really struggle with this because at 5 years old she has already been through so much and I just want her to be well! I came across this song from one of my favorite artists and it really challenged me and reminded me that no matter what comes my way I can trust God. Hope you enjoy the song and it is as helpful to you as it has been to me!

Precious Reminder!

     This song really struck a chord with me because so much is affected by how we think about ourselves... When we are in Christ we are new we are new, redeemed, treasured, loved, and so many more things. I think that if you like me have ever berated yourself this song could be encouraging to you as it has been to me. Just a really good reminder!

Even if...

Last night I had an awakening that I wasn't expecting. Our youngest daughter has been through so much medically, and unfortunately it isn't over. That said, I had often told myself that she was too little to understand, and hopefully she would be better before she would ever understand and that she would never even remember all the meds, hospitalizations, and surgeries. That is simply not the case. Last night when we were doing her meds she looked at me and said "Mommy, why did Dr. P. change my meds again? What happens if it doesn't work? What is he going to do next?"

I was completely shocked. It brought tears to my eyes, but also a realization that we need to be more open with her and start talking to her about the medical stuff that is going on. She obviously understands WAY more than we thought she did. It also means that it is a good time to teach her so much.

As I was telling Grandma about this story today a song came on the radio and God really used it to show me how my perspective needs to change again... THIS is what I need to be teaching my daughter...Even if the healing doesn't come, and life falls apart, You are God, You are good, forever Faithful One~!

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